I'm a stubborn person in certain matters and I'm sure my wife re- cognized the stark truth. At this very time my constant searching brought me to "Transvestia" and Virginia. It was the first ray of hope--a single fragile thread of light in a long dark tunnel of stony melancholy. My wife came to realize that I meant it when I had foresworn all other futures but the one I had with her. She saw that our future was one with the experiences and attitudes of each of us. We both had to contribute, and part of my contribution has to be my FP experiences. She agreed to take a look at the FP psyche with an open mind in search of harmonies that could be ours.

Before the October '61 meeting of The Hose and Heels Club I suggested that she would gain a great deal of understanding by att- ending the club meetings. However, she was pregnant and she gave many reasons why she could not attend. I'll admit that some of them were valid but the strongest one was never voiced, i.e. fear of the un- known. She feared that she might not be able to accept what she saw and, therefore, she would have to reject me. It was just too great, a risk entering into such a decisive situation equipped with the little bit of knowledge she then had (she had never met my femmeseif). As time went on and she saw a radiantly happy person come home from each successive club meeting, our conversations in the wee small hours got progressively longer, and more precious details were re- lated.

For some reason not entirely clear to me she became particularly sympathetic towards me and/or my TV activities early in December 'El. So that when Charles and his wife offered to join us for an evening of conversation in order to answer any questions which might be troub- ling us about TV, I accepted at once. I knew that I was too emotion- ally wound up to present a good case for TV and in retrospect it proved to be the best possible course of action, to have a well mod- ulated "third party" present the problem in the right light. It was an act of true charity which prompted Charles and his wife to spend a long rewarding evening with us radiating a knowledge, compassion, and love that has brought us closer together than we have ever in our lives been before. We owe them a great deal.

Things have happened since that meeting on December 27, '61. My wife has met April. We had a very pleasant visit one evening after the kids were bedded down for the night. We have a new baby girl at our house. And finally, we have a new more relaxed atmo 8- phere in which to raise her. I am more considerate of my wife and

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